Sorry to hear about your experience.
After reading your entire story I can tell that he was way too sensitive about petty
issues. No man or woman needs to dig into the past of his or her spouse. The bad and
the good lies with Allah. (This does not mean that we shouldn't do our research when
first sending or accepting a proposal, rather, there is no point into doing this
beyond the limits after the couple is committed to one another)
Also, it is quiet normal for a person to feel this way, especially the girl, because
it is the nature of a woman to nurture her love. Breaking it can actually break her.
But Allah (azj) is so merciful that he has created this ability to forget. In no
time from now you should be going on the other side of the slop and will be able to
over come the entire thing..
To help you with this I would suggest:
1) Read the Qur'an. Indeed the Remembrance of the Almighty brings tranquility to the
2) make dua. Speak plenty to Allah (azj). This will help you let your feelings out
to someone who was this you the entire time and knows what really happened! Others
can only sympathies or blame you. It is only HIM that knows the Truth and also has
all your affairs in HIS hands.
3) get busy especially physical. you need to tire your energies to boost your
thinking power. A well oxygenated brain works better than a stagnant one. Get some
exercise or sports incorporated in your daily life. This will definitely liven you
I hope you feel better and get a wonderful life partner.
In my duas